I just chatted with my best fren today...about our life n how we feel bout it...but the words that always came out from our mouth is just that we're not pretty..that's why our life is s****...people will treat us differently, just bcoz we're not as pretty as other girls (no special treatment or whatso ever)..we hv to do things on our own..we don't hv a bunch of guys who wanted to do everything for us (come to think bout it again, we're actually lucky bcoz we don't hv to rely on anyone..rite..?)

but the question is...does look is very important..??

during my childhood days, i was an unattractive girl (but i'm still like that now...haha...) compared to my sister...i was very stressed back then...peole will judge us by our looks..so for them, my sister will lead a better life than me in the future..i still remember being told.."emm..angah lagi cantik la dr along...angah mcm ni la...mcm tu la...bla..bla..." (what the h***..) it's not like I envied my sister..it just that i hate all those people who ever think that the world is for the beauty queens only..that others will hv to struggle to get what they want...just becoz they're not pretty enough...

that 'folks' really really ruined my self esteem...i always thought that i would ended up marrying a guy chosen by my parents (bcoz i'm not attractive enough to find my own 'jodoh' @ boyfriend..)having his kids and lead a life like other housewives...with all the bedak sejuk on their face...(mmmm...how can i think about that at time...funny huh...???)

then, when i moved from the 'kampung' to another city, i realized that life is more than what i imagined before this...there's something more powerful than just the good looks...something called the 'brainpower'...hehe...that is my strengh...

when i started schooling, i promised to myself that i will proof to the people at my 'kampung' that they're wrong...totally wrong...that i can be someone although i'm not pretty...i promised to myself that i will study hard, get the best result, be the best students...and achieve my own dreams...i also learned that beauty is very subjective (bcoz there're some people who think i'm quite pretty=)...) true, rite...?
coz "beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder..."

when i think about it again, i should thank all those 'kampung' people..bcoz of their comments, i can be who i am today...