I think I just recover from my recent heartbreak...But it looks like it's not going to end there...
When I went to the hatchery last Friday, I cried when I saw one of my terrapin died...It was floating, breathless...I couldn't control myself...and I cried..(Again...hmm...I guess this is the cying month for me...The month of sadness..)
On Saturday, another one of the terrapin died...I don't know what else to say...May be this is the test that given by ALLAH, just to remind me...May be I did something wrong before this...May ALLAH forgive me for what I've done....Amin...
Last night I watched Full House till 5...haha...so, this morning I was a bit dizzy...I don't know why whenever I feel depressed, I will watch that series...May be it can make me feel better...It do has calming effect on me...Or may be I just think that the story is just like mine...hehe...
Hmmm...Actually I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bosan...huhu...
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-Margaret Mead
Dear diary,
What hv I done...??? why do I still hope for something that will never happen...??? why is it hard for me to get over the person who really doesn't care about me, about my feeling anymore...???
why....????
why....????
Alhamdulillah, he got the job...and why am I feeling happy for him...??? why...??
why can't I just hate him...???
Does he knows how hurt I am when I looked at his comment...??
Does he knows how much I suffer, trying to forget him....??
Does he knows how much pain I go through since I knew about this....??
Does he knows that he broke my heart into pieces when I read the words I LOVE U FOREVER that he wrote for another woman....????
Does he knows that...???
All I wanted is an explanation...is it hard to do...???
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Am I just too stupid to still hope for him....????
Begitu berat melangkah…
melihat kau bersamanya
adakah aku yg salah
atau hanya helah saja
ku masih mencintai diri kamu
bila kau menjauh
ku rindu
kau bagaikan udara
yang membantu aku untuk terus hidup diatas dunia
tanpamu ku lemah
pasti aku tak berdaya
kerna kau maha karya cinta …
biarpun kau tidak mahu
menerima kasih daku
ku kan setia bersama mu
sehingga ke akhir waktu
ku masih menyayangi diri kamu
bila kau berlalu
ku rindu ..
kau bagaikan udara
yang membantu aku untuk terus hidup diatas dunia
tanpamu ku lemah
pasti aku tak berdaya
kerna kau maha karya cinta
kau takkan dapat aku lupakan
kerna kau lah punca cinta kita
mengajar aku erti bahagia
kembalilah ..
terimalah pesan daku
yang akan terus menunggu …
Although I’m having a hard time rite now, I feel very grateful because I’m not going through this alone...
I am very lucky to have a family that will always stand by me… no matter what happened, they will always be there for me…they will never let me down and never even let me feel lonely although they’re not with me rite now…they are my strength….
I am also very grateful for having such a great friends with me…when I think about what one of my friend did to me, I nearly cried…he is one of my best friend...but there are some people who don’t understand and always misunderstood our feelings…he’s been a wonderful and great friend to me…and I’m touched by his kindness and sacrifices…there was a time when I was having a problem with a guy because of him, he was willing to put a distant between us…but he said to me..keep in mind that although we are no longer talking to each other, we are still friends and our friendship will never die...he tried to make me hate him so that I won’t speak with him anymore…so that I will not be having any more problems with the guy that I was with at that time…and now when I’m no longer with the guy, he came to me again, giving me a shoulder to cry on…listening to my problems, giving me advise, and telling jokes that really lights up my day…
It’s not only him who is willing to lend me his ears, listening to my problem, and giving me advise…but all of my friends are with me now…they will never let me feeling down…although we are far away from each other, we will always stick together, no matter what…and I’m very grateful to be blessed by this precious gifts…and I promise that I will never take them for granted…I will always treasure their friendship and love…and no matter where I go or what I do, I will always love u guys…
Thanks for being a wonderful family and wonderful friends to me…